Summer that Was

Hey, September, how yoo dooin'? September, here's what: I'm happy you're here. You always bring with you the smell of U-Hauls and giddy college students, the sounds of wonky high school trombone players, "Haa-yaaang on, Sloopeh, Slooopeh, Hang Onnnn!", freshly cut football fields. Your days start to slope, the sun waning, 7:30, 7:15, on on on down to 6:30 p.m. and by the time your turn is almost up, there is a coziness to the night and an acquaintedness with new school textbooks, while still a hopefulness that there are big things still to accomplish this year.

But let me tell you about this past summer, September, the one you're sweeping up for me in your wake. I'll be frank. I thought this summer 2010 was going to suck. I thought I was going to be all soaking bedsheets with milk and wandering zombie-like around my creeky home at 3 a.m. But this past summer was awesome in its unremarkableness. It was just lovely, and smooth. We didn't go anywhere spectacular (Newport? Cleveland, anyone?). I don't even think we went out to brunch somewhere splendid. We just ate a thousand popsicles on our cruddy patio, watched the airplanes overhead, and wasted a lot of sprinkler water on ourselves, which, if you ask me, wasn't a waste at all.

Sure, it was no party when Loverpants got pneumonia. And the hematoma thing I could have done without. But I'll always remember Fourth of July, sitting with Brother Greg watching the "Boston Pops" on our couch and talking about how his blanket and law textbook were waiting for him on the Common, but instead he was sitting watching the performance with us on TV.

I'll remember chicken parm night with my old man and Julie, defining bummerooski with my mom and Goobs, and just being so grateful and shmoopy to come home from OH and come back to my life with my hubby.

I'll remember getting to know the girl that Baby Girl is now at an articulate 2.5 years-old, how she used "I'm sulking" totally appropriately, how her sapphire eyes, framed by her pixie cut, look out at a world and see not a complicated planet but only the ripe cherry tomatoes in the box garden, the sequined pink slippers on sale at Target, the travesty that is the removal of the "Shrek 3" billboard on Gallivan Blvd.

Most obviously, though, I'll remember the ease and wonder I felt for 104 days of meeting this new Little Man in my life. I don't know what angel interceded in Heaven so that I could have this little boy with a halo all summer long, but I am grateful. He is so marvelously adaptable that holding him - which I try to do as many seconds of the day as I can - is a tranquilizer, it's possibly the best drug a hospital lets you leave with, no prescription necessary. Just hold Little Man for a minute, ohhhh those soft little cheeks and fluttery eyelashes! And you will know.

So all that is to say that life until now has been wonderful, and welcome to you, September 2010. 30 more days in this month of turning 30. Yahoo.

*** Some snaps that our new friend, the talented Dr. Paul Yoo took at Boston Temple in the Fenway.

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Palpable

There were moments when I could see it, feel it on her face.  Moments of recognition that, This is Love.  Love is here. I am known, loved, counted among the special. I saw my daughter fall in love with her family, her extendeds, people whom she has only known through quarterly visits and digital images.  I could see her melting into their hugs and finding the arc in their laughter where trust and vulnerability live.

7 days in Ohio, in the home where I got busted multiple times for getting nail polish on cherry oak furniture, where I played endless games of Uno, where I learned how to read and read my mother's angry face and fell asleep under lit Christmas trees in a California Raisins sleeping bag.

Now my daughter sleeps on that floor, in the same California Raisins sleeping bag, and wakes up to a different hum in the morning than I remember, but one no less sweet.

Oh how it pained me to leave, but double the torment of pulling my baby girl away from this fanclub of fandamily.  Little Man will come to know the club soon and well enough in time.  But this last visit was monumental for Baby Girl.  She has inside jokes with her Uncle Mikie.  She has special songs with her grandparents and there are toys retained in their basements only for her.

I have believed for the last couple of years that this wide geographic divide between our families was overrated.  And after this last visit home, I am convinced that it is downright cruel.  But I'm trying to be content in the present and hopeful for the future and keeping a look-out for opportunities....lots of opportunities.....

The land of Cleve, on the shores of Erie

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Go Buckeyes

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Do the grandmothers in your family enjoy giving children baths as much as mine seem to?

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Auntie TP

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Baby Girl was so stoked to have cousins. She had prior to this told me about imaginary cousins that had given her presents...

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Chillin' with Uncle Mikie

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My wonderful in-laws came to have lunch on sabbath at my mama's. I made quinoa. It wasn't terrible.

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My mama. My baby.

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Swimming at my old man's

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July 9

Arrival 8 years ago

CLE > BOS

suitcase full of suits

taxi ride along Storrow Drive to apartment of summer

sunny day, auspicious. Tax Status:  Single Many, many McJobs

dinners of black beans and salsa

wine stains on the rug

roommates and dance parties

riding the Fung Wah to NYC

debt and depression

but always, church

baptized, engaged

Tax Status:  Married

honeymoon, swoon

lovenest brought to you by IKEA

unemployment, creativity

grad school, confidence

corporate jobbing

scoping real estate

sign on the line

plus sign on a stick

gestate, wait

Tax Status:  Married with Dependents

add: cherub

glory, coming into own

joyous exhaustion

socking away old hurts

mama friends

making stroller tracks

requisite iced coffee

peddling lip gloss

capstone complete

secure sheepskin

travel solo

adjunct lecture

add: cherub two

consider days here, numbered.....